~Future Crazy Cat Lady Spinster, M.D.~

Plans are changin’ again.

I’m gonna try to breathe, accept change, and go with the flow. I may be taking more than a year off now, for financial reasons. It looks like (cross my fingers) I’m going to get that Home Care Aid job for the elderly that I was hoping to get, allowing me time to get hands-on experience dealing with people who need my help, continue working part-time at my customer service job, volunteer 2-4x month at the clinic and maintain my research assistant title, and study for my mcats. I will only be applying to my #1 medical school. If needed, if I do not get accepted right away, I will take another 6-8 months to apply to more medical schools.

Other than my medical career path, this next year will be exciting! It looks like I may be travelling throughout Maine, Boston, and Chicago. I will travel by train for the first time. I will watch multiple friends get married (and may even have a bachelorette party involving white water rafting and/or skydiving), and I will force myself to take time to actually have a social life. 

I GRADUATE IN 51 DAYS.

And then I get to get a second job, pay tuition debt for my year off, study and take the MCAT like a maniac, apply to medical schools, do some traveling, and go to some pretty snazzy weddings.

Be jealous, bitches.

TODAY IS AWESOME!

I just got offered a Research Assistant job without even applying by the fantastic woman who runs the free clinic I’m doing my internship at. AND she’s gonna mention me in her published research.

Gotta 93 on my presentation.

MEANING I GET TO DO MY OWN RESEARCH NEXT SEMESTER.

Wtf I’m actually a scientist.

YOU GUYS, OMG.

I’m doing a 20 minute presentation tomorrow night for my senior research project proposal! I still need to force myself not to speed talk, but I’m gonna try and imagine myself presenting at grand rounds 8 years from now. 

“Migraine Assessment in College Students Aged 18 to 23: A Student-Based Population Study at SJCME”

Boom.

On a happier note!

I got my schedule for next semester! I got all of the classes I wanted/needed. Finishing my Biology/Pre-med Bachelor degree with:

*Physics II (required) on campus

*Senior Project II (required) on campus

*Independent Study Medical Terminology (voluntary) on campus

*Biology Internship (voluntary—hopefully at a Prosthetic Lab or Rehab Center) off campus

*Online Philosophy of Gender

My GPA sucks, y’all.

I keep following all of these medical student blogs and all of you have GPAs above 3.25+. My cGPA is only a measly 2.73… My freshman year sucked grade-wise and I failed one class sophomore, receiving a mix of As and Bs with some peppered in Cs ever since. I have this last year, my final year, my Senior year, to go and then that’s it. I can’t afford tuition anywhere right now, especially my private Catholic undergrad college. 

I’m literally going to have to try and get all As in every class this year, which I’m taking as many classes on campus PLUS online courses to make up credits without overloading but enough to make sure I graduate on time, plus I’m joining Pre-professionals club and catching up on volunteering. Not only that but after I miraculously graduate I need to spend that year paying off as many bills as possible, meaning getting a 2nd job (which I need in the medical field for experience) and plug in even more medical volunteering… AND I NEED TO TAKE THE MCAT AND DO WELL AND APPLY TO MEDICAL SCHOOLS AND WRITE ESSAYS AND GO TO INTERVIEWS. I have no idea where any of this money is coming from!

Oh my God… What if nobody accepts me? Nobody is going to accept me! What do I do if no med school accepts me? OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD!!!!…………………………………………….

I’m so screwed…and that was my freak out sesh.

I have a cellular biology exam tomorrow worth 35% of my grade…

And this was the weekend that my boss scheduled me normal shifts. I figured I’d have plenty of time to study since I usually have 4 hour shifts during February. NOPE. So, I have to study hardcore when I get home from work tonight at 8:30p…FUCKMYLIFE.

Procrastination is gonna kill me one day.

Agenda for today.

Class 10a-11:45a. Library for an hour to study Calculus. Genetics lab 1p-3:50p. Home with Kristina (best friend on campus) for Thai food! Back to campus to study/gossip/drive each other insane for the night. Tomorrow: Genetics exam & Calculus exam. Then…3 day weekend and spending Monday watching SW all damn day!

My life is absolutely enthralling.